What I want to remember today is to take my own advice...so I decided to write down my hopes for the future and the things from my past that I would not like to repeat in my 20 years of living...It's not set in stone, but typed in the blog equivalent of writing it in blood.
The first thing I want to remember is not to take myself so seriously. TMI WARNING: I came out saying "not that way" and "I don't like that kind of milk" so why would I ever think my life was so stuffy and serious? There are times to be serious like at a funeral or picking out china but how often am I going to be doing that? In the ripe age of 21 I really want laughter to be my best medicine. This goes into my second hope for the future, I want to be healthy. I don't care about weight or looking like Nicole Richie pre-rehab, but I want to feel healthy for one time in my life. It seems that I am always sick. It leads me to take myself too seriously. I need to learn to stop and breathe. This last week, I have been to doctor to doctor and it made me realize that I run around until I drop. After my spinal tap I was restless because I am so used to running around that my body did not even know how to recover. I don't want that to be the case when I turn 21. I want to learn to manage my stress in a healthy way. I stress too much and it is catching up with me. What kind of life is it when you worry too much to even enjoy what is going on? I don't want to be so ruled by stress anymore. I'm 21 what is there to really be worrying about? except for college loans, knowing my skin is at its peak, grad school...no more. Well maybe this blog was selfishly written for me, but I feel a lot better. Because in the great words of the Weepies "the world spins madly on"...with or without me.
Bring it on 21.
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