
What I don't want to forget is the pleasure taken by simple things. I've been having so medical problems lately that have been nothing less than just depressing. Being honest, getting out of bed has been quite a struggle, probably the equivalent to Oprah going on a hunger strike, nearly impossible. But today when I was driving home I decided to make a change and do something...that something, incidently, was going to Petco and buying a fish. Now, sophmore year I had a fish, Fendi (RIP God rest his little soul) who I may or may not have put in cold Brita water....ok ONE TIME. But this time it was going to be different, which I had to reassure my boyfriend on the phone while sorting through which one I wanted. Petco has some haggard fish, let me tell you I swear finding one with both eyes and a whole tail was difficult. Where did they fish come from, straight from the fish fight? And it wasn't like aww cute but sad, a kitty with one eye, I'll call him winky. No, this was like eww where you born next to a nuclear power plant? Ok back to the story, besides no one being there to help me, I picked out all of my fish products and rung this bad boy up, Fendi II was now mine. His pinky glow was hopefully going to change something in my life.
Being depressed, I want something to need me to take care of it. I wanted something that depends on me and only me. Something that forces me to keep going. If it takes a fish to get me out of bed, even just to feed it, it is well worth the $24.51. Hopefully, I have found a way to buy a little bit of happiness.
Well it is still the first day and Fendi II is all set up in his new palace. We'll see how this goes, but I definitely have a good feeling about this one.
So what I really want to remember is to take pleasure in the simple things like buying a fish. Even though I looked like a forth grader walking into Petco with my pink backpack on and walked into the fish section, it gave me a chance to laugh at myself, and remember what it felt like when I did this when I was younger. When buying a fish was like buying a new friend, I mean a friend that would probably die in a year and could easily be replaced, but still. The simple things in life are what keep up going and remind us what it feels like to be content.

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